LoveFriday, August 17, 2007
i dont know if i shld or i shldnt :/
sometimes i think i shld then i'll think of what if they left .
if i shldnt , i'll lose it too .
both are important .
)):
i will think of the consequences before i decide which one i actually prefer .
but friends are more important yarh .
i've been thinking , maybe i shldnt ?
keep the way i am now .
before i lose anything .
but still , its bothering me .
and the feeling is ssoooo undescriable .
and i shld stop .
i shldnt take in more .
it will become worst .
but if i stop ,
i might not able to be with them .
whats more , i lost ):
you know , this kind of feeling just sucks .
when you got urself a question in ur mind .
and you couldnt get the right answer ,
or what you actually want.
your mind will just went blank , not knowing what is the next step you shld do .
day by day , just follow the time and know nothing .
this is not what i wanted , but still i din get myself an answer .
maybe my question to myself ,
is too difficult for me to solve .
just like test and exam .
you have to study real hard to get the result you wanted .
but what if i failed many times , i will give up .
this is me .
i've never think of trying harder .
just like my history , i passed once in my entire life only .
and no matter how hard i study , the damn thing dont get in to my damn brain .
im gonna give up on my history .
maybe ?
im not working hard on it .
i try to ,
i failed . i got tempt by every little things .
no matter what , frens is always thr .
but what if they chooses the wrong path.
im not as independant as you all thought .
i can console others but not myself .
thats humans -.-
how i wish im leonard .
he is an happy-go-lucky guy .
.___________________.
whateverr .
im emo-ing .
bloodyshit .
3:13 PM
